I ATE WHEAT!!

Monday I ate bread! It was a stuff it, I'm eating it kinda moment.. It was a BBQ.. I was 25 days wheat free..

Tuesday I attended a workshop & lunch was bread or wraps.. I went wraps and my heart was beating rapidly 2 hours later..

Wednesday was a meeting & subway was for lunch.. I ate wraps. 

Thursday.. I ate a leftover wrap.

Today is Friday & I had a headache last night before bed, the worst leg cramp in top of leg.. I laid awake at one point last night.. I've woken up with a blocked nostril.. Yucky foggy eyes.. Very sore joints in bottom of legs. Heel pain feels worse. 

Wheat definitely doesn't agree with me!!!

MEAT!!!! MEET!!!!

Its finally dawned on me that I've been eating too much meat & my body doesn't like it!!! 

When I fell ill in 2013 I started eating more meat than I has been for fear that I was low in iron.. My weight increased quite quickly & I couldn't work out why. Hypoglycemia was a shocker.. Inflammation was terrible. 

Then the penny dropped! Too much meat! Too many hormones!! I'm already grain free. & dairy free.. Now to get the meat outta my guts!!

Met a overly guy online.. At first I thought he wasn't my type.. Then a thought immediately said "what if he's the one?"... We get on so well. I was nervous to meet him in person.. We met yesterday., he likes me just as I am :) he wants to see me again.. I like him a lot! 

Day 7

Day 7... New Year, New Me!

Here I am, day 7.. Just hopped off the exercise bike.. 1/2 hour... My first exercise is a long while. I've been eating well for 7 days.. Clean eating.. Feeling a little better. A long way to go but know I will continue to feel better the more clean food I consume, the more exercise I do, the more weight I dissolve, the more meditation I do, the more love I have for myself, the more confidence I have in myself, the more I engage with the world around me, the more I engage with my children, the more I help others.

I decided the new year would be the year to regain myself, to come into my own, to be the real me, to realise my dreams, to realise my self worth, to find love to love myself.

I decided to give myself a week to clean eat before getting into exercise.. If I did it before today that would have been fine but definitely had to start today. I'm not sure I could've started before today because of the pain in my feet, the fatigue, the load of other symptoms that were holding me back. 

So, I put on Eat, Pray, Love and set my timer for 30 minutes, hopped on the exercise bike in the heat of a January afternoon. I checked the timer in the hope that the time was almost up. Then I said to myself that no matter how I slow I went I just needed to do it, for me. I focused on the movie... Then the self-talk was questioning whether to continue and begging it to be time already.. I continued.. Checked time.. 11minutes to go... Argh!.... Just do it.. C'mon it's gotta be time.. Buzz already!....checked again.. 1 minute to go.. Woohoo!! Almost there.. Counted down with the timer!! 30 minutes done!! 

Almost 2 years to the day since I last posted!

Wow, what a challenge the past couple of years have been....

A$&@ finally separated from his wife - I knew it was coming for 4 years before it happened... We hit the hay a couple of times.... Nothing to write home about it!! Very disappointing.. Very upsetting too.. Led down a garden path for his own satisfaction!!

I took the morning after pill twice & started taking the pill & they fucked me up big time! I was like a crazy lunatic!! Fucked up my cycles; fucked up my head.. That was in March 2013.. 

In August I succumbed to an illness that wiped me out for months.. I couldn't function.. Ended up in ER about 5 times, Drs every 2nd day.. Loads of tests... Nothing wrong according to the tests.. I had 3 months off work because I literally couldn't get myself there & couldn't function.. I sat in the lounge chair & laid in bed for months on end, scared that each day was my last. I was having (what I now know to be) hypoglycemic episodes numerous times a day amongst a myriad of other symptoms. 

In January 2014 I returned to work.. I wasn't healed but needed some normality, some routine in my life. Every day was a struggle. Every day I was concerned about my health. I managed to work almost every day of the year.

I gained about 25 kilos this year. I've reverted back to feeling the same fucking shitness that I felt 8 years ago when I was the same weight... A heffering 145kg... My body hurts all over.. The list of symptoms totals about 30. I need my fitness & health back! 

I'm embarking on the wheat belly lifestyle from tomorrow.. I'm not telling anyone, I'm just doing it... I'm looking forward to making jaws drop. I think I can lose 10-15 kg before I start back at work in 3 weeks. Fluid/inflammation is keeping the weight on.. Bleh! Looking forward to looking & feeling sexy!!

25th November 2014

GOALS

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2013 will be awesome.. It's the year I will take charge of my health, fitness, happiness & future..

My goals are to do a minimum of 365 hours of exercise & to lose a minimum of 52 kilos.. SMART goals.. I will JFDI!!

NEW YEAR'S EVE!

Well it's New Year's Eve.. Thankfully! 2012 proved to be rather challenging.. I started the year off well dropping a few kilos but my eldest was unwell with anxiety @ issues at school & I fell off the wagon in a big way.. I jumped back on the wagon a few times but could only remain aboard for short spurts..

I was doing well with being wheat free.. I was wheat free more than a week when we had Christmas & wheat filled delicacies so of course I fell off the wagon & found it difficult to pick myself up....

Until today! Today is a great day to brush myself off & climb aboard! It may be New Year's Eve but that's great! I want to bring in the New Year with a bang so to speak!

I have felt so unwell this past week with all the wheat I have eaten.. But still I continued... Wheat is a drug of addiction!! As I lay here in my bed I feel soooo bloated... My legs/ groin are chafing at the top which I haven't had for a long time.. My feet are very painful.. My head feels yuck... I feel very depressed... I just want to be happy.. I want the weight gone forever!

I only have 3 weeks til I go back to the Clinic.. My goal is to be at least 6 kilos lighter than I was when I was there last time..

I must start exercising 1 hour per day... Every day & eating clean... I CAN DO IT!!I WILL DO IT!!