Wayne!

I met Wayne online in about July.. That was the 2nd time we had chatted online.. we chatted for a couple of months before he disappeared suddenly one day.. I missed him because we got on so well & I really didn't know what happened! I continued to chat to other guys & then about a month later Wayne returned.. He said that he had had enough of the online dating scene & had only returned to give me his details.. He gave me his personal & work number & 2 email addresses.. We then started corresponding by SMS & I randomly asked him if was a scout when he was younger & to my surprise he was... He was in my brothers troop & remembered going to a camp with my brother.. We both enjoyed contact.. At times he would be distant & tell me he was going thru a stressful time at work & his ex was playing games..

We decided we should meet.. We arranged for early October & then he had to go to Melbourne for work & then he went through a difficult time at work.. So the Universe answered mg prayer by delaying our meeting as I was feeling very self conscious & fat!

We ended up meeting on 10th November. I almost chickened out as I was having a very down day & also very nervous about meeting anyone at 130kgs!! He was lovely about it & said it was up to me.. We ended up meeting.. He picked me up from the front of my villa complex.. He was out of the car.. When I walked over to him he said "I don't know what you were worried about!"... Phew!! We ended up at Manly Beach.. We had fish & chips by the water ' went for a walk & had ice cream.. The whole time he was flirting big time.. I really liked him.. He was just like I expected him to be.. When we arrived back to the front of my place around 11.30 he left the headlights on & I asked if he wanted to get rid of me in a hurry & he said no.. We sat & make small talk & started touching each other on the hands.. He gave me a hand & arm massage which was awesome.... And then he kissed me... That was awesomer!!! We didn't want to leave each other.. Just after midnight I left him as my sister was looking after my kids..

The next day I messaged him in the afternoon to thank him for a good night.. I heard from him a few times that week.. He seemed ok but distant compared to the lead up when he messaged me every morning & then throughout the day..

So here I am 2 weeks later.. He hasn't asked me out again.. Just lots of jokes about seeing each other fir some fun.. haven't heard from him since Thursday..

I messaged him on Friday & no response.. I messaged him yesterday asking how he is.. No response.. I know what my next move needs to be.... Silence.. I need to play hard to get.. And see what happens..

I get soooo frustrated with men! I've lost count of the number I've met over the years.. And here I am, single!!! I know my behavior has a lot to do with it but doesn't excuse their behaviour.. Time to take charge & play this one differently as I would usually by now say goodbye & try to get in first before I get dumped in a heap.. Not playing that this time.. Psychic told me that we will be together before Christmas & that he would be distant again after we met.. a few other things he said rang true also.. His last words were "don't mess it up!".... Soooo here I am trying desperately not to mess it up!!!!